Its Gonna Be Ok!

I never met anyone who cried out to God to bring death upon them until today. I was at the doctors office when all of a sudden I heard someone cry out  " God! Why me? Why do you have me in all this pain? Im not worth it! Please let me die!" Then i remembered…

A few years ago, I hated life…disappointed to wake up…so unappreciative of the ability to inhale and exhale. A waste of God's breath. I hated myself and If I were to rate my self-esteem, it would in the negative. Instead of changing my atmosphere, I let it change me. I was a complete mess I tell ya! I felt as if I had no purpose. I prayed day and night for God to take my life. But he didn't! To make a long story short, I had to learn to love myself and not let my issues dictate how i feel about my life. I forced myself into speaking positive things. It took me a while to love myself and realize that I was loved and here for a purpose.  

While the woman cried out , the doctor called me in the office so we could encourage and pray for her. Then I realized that this was my opportunity to turn what was my mess into a message. I had to go through what I went through to be an inspiration to someone. Ha Ha love it!

Awesomtacity: Life is filled with ups and downs. We need to find the awesomeness in our worse situations. Joy is a choice! We are all here for a specific purpose therefore we should never feel as if we have no worth. Speak life. Its gonna be OK!
Here's a song i wrote. Enjoy...

Happy New Year

WoW! 2011 Is pretty much over. It was a uber interesting year for me. The year to "DO IT"; to stop procrastinating and make a move in making your dreams a reality. On January 1, 2011 I decide to do just that in spite of my many years being a procrastinator. ughhh It was quite a challenge,  but I'm the midst of things some amazing people were "thrown" into my life. So Superb!!!! My perspective about life completely changed. I learned how to smile in spite of hardship and to love people unconditionally. I learned how to do my best and let God do the rest. For the first time I lived my life doing things that I loved. I loved myself for "ME" and not through what others thought about me. I drew again… and after 2 years of writers' block….I wrote again.

I must say that things turned out pretty awesome. Headed "Down-Under" in a few. Im so ready for 2012!

Awesomtacity: This is only the beginning. THE BEST IS YET TO COME!

All of The Lights

So…Its the day before Christmas Yaay!.  Everyone is out and about doing their last minute shopping, flying out to be with family, dinner preparations. Christmas has always made me feel super happy unlike any other holiday. I find Christmas decorations so fascinating especially in NYC; the lights, window displays at stores, beautifully decorated Christmas trees especially the one at Rockefeller Center, which I have yet to see. Walking in the city feels like walking through a fairy tale.

As I sat at work yesterday, I found myself so concentrated on the Christmas tree before the lights were plugged in. There was no life. It didn’t feel like Christmas. It was just a sad ole’ tree standing in front of me. I realized that I was getting so caught up with excitement by the “Christmassy” things around me and defined it as Christmas. I wondered, what would Christmas be like if there were no lights and decorations. I was so fascinated with the “lights” that I was forgetting the real reason for the season; Jesus “the light of the world”. Shame on me!

Awesomtacity:  Lets all put more focus on celebrating the true Light Of The World; Our Gift; Jesus, and not make this the only time of the year that we put effort in spreading love and giving gifts. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ….. XMAS

Welcome

Welcome to my blog "Awesomtacity". Haha I actually thought I made up this word up until I googled it and it happened to be in the urban dictionary ughh!!!….( It's another word for Awesomeness) … but anyways…I decided to a blog just to talk about uuhmm …whatever inspires me from day to day, my thoughts... just life in general on this awesome earth; moving from Jamaica to living in NewYork City, soon to be moving to Australia…so many things going on. OMG!!!  In spite of the corruption that exists, this world is pretty cool. You're just not looking hard enough or you just need to change your perspective. Am I right or am I right??? Be optimistic, find the "Awesomtacity" in everything we do.